My favorite book.

   My favorite literlature is a 'Ressurection' that is written by a russian novelist Tolstoy.To illustrate the breif of the story, a noble named Nekhlyudov, did wrong thing to his lover, and just went away to the army, giving some money to his lover at the same time. Tragically, because of the shock he gave, Mechussa, his lover, become prositute. After years, Mechussa became a criminal by a mistake, Nekhlydov eventually attend to the trial and realise the sin he have made. Nekhlydov struggles to restore his conscience  and recover his lovers from that moment and that's the story. I was fascinated by this book because this was my almost first literlatue I have met in lifetime, and it taught me about 'what human is', and it stroke my conscience as a christian.
  In early days, I was able to read  a good completed literlatue in my home, but refused to read it instead of cheating for a school homework copying the summary in the very end of the book. But, after meeting a teacher who gave me great passion about the reading, I started to read a book of philosophy by my own. But after realizing the fact that If I was going toread a book in depth, I should began from the beginning, a literlature. So I choose the book from a public library in local area. It was a hard task to read a literlature about more than 600 pages (maybe?) which is divided in two part. I struggled for it, and suddenly I was able to recognize myself that I was really enjoying it and influenced by it much. This book gave me a joy of literlature first time.
   In addition, as my mother said in past days, a literlature showed me the true intrinsic of a human's mind. This book describes the people who are corrupted by a system that divides people who are wealth and poor.  Moreover, this book shows almost every aspects of human hypocrisy. While reading the book, I thought every second 'I will not be like this person.' Thus, this book helped me to look inside of the human's complicated  mind. But I couldn't disagree with a fact that actually I was justifying my wealthness (not only a physical matter) and didn't tried to reform my rutified life.
   Last but not least, I was been compeletely striken my conscience after reading this book. A protagonist named  Nekhlyudov, similarly he was reflecting my struggle for conscience, but more fiercely and truly. He gave up his every property and gave it to the tenant. He ends up his immoral life and gives his whole life for who is poor, weak, innocent. Despite of the temptations, he never made a compromise at the end, and purely live for the people with the joy that God gave to him.
I felt this is impossible. But isn't it the life I should live? Throwing away the self-centered life but neighbor-centered, and always struggling for the conscience and don't sitting on the sidelines when people's are suffering? Such as a labor right, land speculation, etc, many of problems are threatening our conscience and taming our life into it's reason. I sometimes reflect myself remembering the life of  Nekhlyudov. I think maybe his lifestory will be the rolemodel of my life.
   Resurrection gave me an unforgatable experience in my life. I hope that  Nekhlyudov keep breathes in somewhere of my conscience and tells me " Don't make a compromise. Keep struggle for your conscience. Follow his will, and throw away the things what you must.